I'm back!
Another attempt at this whole blogging fiasco. I've never really been good at it. My thoughts are always so scattered. I think it's the ADD.
Hmmm...I sit here and ponder what the heck to even blog about. I'm not one to just pour my inner self out for the world to see. Why make myself vulnerable? I ask that about anyone who blogs. Care to give me an answer? Perhaps I want people out there to know exactly what I'm talking when I'm talking about it. The "I know whatcha mean" response. Do I just want attention? Like I've never heard that question before. That question is what made me lock up any ounce of emotion from escaping my twisted mind. The first time I remember crying, pouring my heart out and truly feeling in front of someone, they questioned my motives. Hmmm...I may have thought of myself as a pretty good actor but I wasn't doing it for any other reason other than feeling sadness.
I suppose I'm going this route again because at some point in my life I'm going to have to get much of this....this...chaos? out of my head. Is a blog a way to go? We shall see. Therapy would probably be better but I have no interest in speaking to someone face to face. I've done well over my lifetime reading people's expressions and body language to know...
Dang...I wrote this many, many months ago. I really have no idea where I was going with this blog. It's a good start for what's to come of my emotional roller coaster. When I get into these "funks" the only thing I can think to do is get it out. I'm not much for therapy or mind altering medications.
This is my therapy.
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